Spirit Of God

I don't know where to start or what to say, but I felt like I would like to document some feelings I felt the past couple of days and Don't want to Forget these feelings & this situation Ever.

My aunt(Mother's sister) has just died last Wednesday & it hasn't been that easy for all of us.

Although she has been sick almost all of her life, She was Very thankful in every stage!

She had a lottt (& when I say a lot it means that u can't imagine how many things..) of Heavy Burdens on her shoulders. Yes she was sometimes tired of it & sometimes can't handle it & may be angry From God(that's Because we are Humans who have a certain Limit in accepting Burdens),But that was for a very short time & then she Return Thanking him for everything...

I guess if Someone asked me : what is the Worst thing in this life ?..I would say the answer to be "Death!"

It is the Worst in everything, in Separating people, in Changing the picture of the people u love

to another one....

But at the same time, I see it like this, It Always Make U Remember what Life is all about...

It is not about Fighting, Hating ,Money......

It is about helping People,Making good deeds,Serving God & Serving People...& Then at the end these good deeds shall be evaluated if u deserve to be rewarded for ur life or not; & as Good as these deeds are ,You shall Get Your Reward.

Another point that came to my mind in this situation is;that Our Souls (which is part of GOD's spirit) is a very Precious thing that we sometimes totally forget about it .

(You will never Realize that unless u look to a Soul-less body..!)

& That's where I totally realized it ...

When I looked to the "Soul-less Body", I Suddenly realized How Useless , Unpleasant & Bad a Body can be without the Soul which is the "Spirit of God" in it ! (No Matter how Beautiful the person is !),

& How Valuable ,Beautiful & Great a body with Spirit of God can be ( even if that person is not Beautiful at all!).

And How Sometimes we take care of Our Body (the useless ,vanishing one) More than the Beautiful & Everlasting Soul which is REALLY a Gift from God that He gave us in the first place.

Some people may say that I am trying to get something religious out of this, But Believe me I Mean Every Word with its "Literal Meaning" & Not a Larger Meaning. You won't believe me until u see it yourself. But It is So Real!

My Moral from this Experience I lived is that :We Should Thank God For Every Breath that we take ,Every Move that we Make & Every Day that he Gives us is Really another Chance...

We should grab it to the Most, because suddenly & without any intro's, This chance will be over...

Rush of Memories....

Going through some of my photos,I had Lots & Lots of Memories..!!

Some of them are the best ever..Some are not that good & some may be bad ...

The most important thing is to have lots of Memories..because when u look back, remember & go through these memories , you will feel very happy about them .

You will feel that the past times didn't go in vain..You will know how much u invested & how much did u gain :)

You May even wish for some memories to come back again, & you will wish for others they won't ever come back!

I wish that these memories will never fade away...coz these memories define who I am ,Whom I became & may be who will I become in the future.

The only thing that I consider as a disadvantage for memories is that they sometimes prevent you from moving forward..
You keep loving these memories that sometimes u refuse making new ones coz may be they won't be as good as the old ones...

But if these old memories go away ,u will find yourself Missing a lot!!

It has been only few months on my Graduation , & I started missing already my Friends & my College days !:)

I miss hanging out with my favorite friends, Staying in our favorite places in Uni. (& out of it), Chatting about what is good & what is bad, Spending long days together, Going out in Large groups ,knowing people closer & closer everyday ..I miss making new memories with them!

I just wish that these beautiful memories wont' fade away from my Memory as well as my Friends memories coz it will be the only bond connecting us after a while =).

History...

I have never liked history in school, neither studying it or even reading it ...But today was different...I lived it!

Of Course u may laugh at me & say: if u r LIVING it then it is not history Yet !..it is just the present..

But I will tell u: allow me to call it History because what I lived defined a Turning point in my people & my country's history...& I may not live it again.

It all started with a group of People..

A group of people who had some Requests & some Hopes...

Some Opinions that have never been heard before, & some Thoughts that have been in their hearts & minds for so long but didn't have the chance to express it..So these people decided to MAKE their Own Chance..& that was the start!

It was Tuesday 25-1-2011, it was a Day off when people decided to Break their Silence and Express themselves in a good & Democratic way..Just Express Themselves.

I admit I wasn't courageous enough to participate in the Demonstrations, But I was concerned to Share the Feelings of the people & stay updated with all what was happening.

At First, I didn't feel that excited...Was just a demonstration & it will end soon & nothing will happen as Always !!

After the day finished and people were still concerned that they won't stop , it started to feel different step by step .. My People are Finally expressing what WE feel & that we are considered one of the Most Civilized countries in the world ..and all the world started watching us!

3 Consecutive days of demonstration in different parts of the country...NON STOP!

Until the day Everything changed into a Nightmare...

It all turned to a War & Not a Demonstration...a War between Citizens of the country & its Government!

Policemen against Protestores, Fights, Quarrels, Stones, Tear gas, Fire, Blood, Curfew & then Military Forces in the streets !!

I won't be able to express everything happened or felt in that day..but all I can say is that it was a Mixed Feeling of Sadness, Fear, Worries & shock !

It was a HEll Of a Week..I still can't believe how it passed!

I even don't know if it passed very fast or very slow !...

It felt as if My Life has been PAUSED for a week..and waiting to continue it soon!

I can't deny that some great achievements have been made due to this week ..Achievements that we didn't dream of fulfilling at first.............but Also great Sacrifices have been paid too.

I wish I could document everything & every feeling that happened in that past week ; with its good & bad ; But I guess I can't...

It will just remain in my mind till the time comes when I narrate it to my kids or read about it in History books (that I still don't like :) ).

Why The Fear ??!

This topic has came to my mind a lot before ..but I never thought of writing about it until today;after having a conversation with one of my friends about relationships & commitment.

I decided that I want to write about it ...May be that will help me not think about it any more. :)

I Have always wondered about: Why a lot of People (specially Men ..with all my respect :D ) fear about being committed ??! Why do some of them just "Freak Out" when they think of the word "Marriage" and all what comes with it of meaning ?!

Of course some women do too ..But Women are always more ready for Sharing ,Starting a family & being responsible for a home & children.

Even in the Movies ! (specially the american ones :D) ...
Two people may love each other very much, they are happy with each other , They even may live together & do things together ... They Almost Share Everything together!

But once one of them start thinking about marriage & Commitment ..ohhhh No! They start Freaking out & Going back to not being ready !! (what the ...?!!)

What I really mean here is that Life is all about being Committed to many & different things.

I see it as follows:

-Any one who has a family is Committed to his family (whether his father ,Mother, brothers, sisters ,cousins....etc ) ...He/she just can't come one day & say: Sorry that's enough..I am bored of being part of this family & I will search for another .

-Any one who Love his job is committed to his job & to the Company he is working for.

(May be some will tell me that Committed = Forever...& no one will stay in his same job or company like Forever !...But I tell u It is Definitely a kind of Commitment).

-Any one who has Friends , Is also Committed to his Friends to some extent.

-Even someone who is Doing a Project /Assignment at a company ,College or Even A Personal one , He/ She is Committed to that Project till it is finished!

- A Church you go to all your life, A school , A University....You will keep on saying: That is MY CHURCH..MY School & MY University that I graduated from ...It just will remain with u for the rest of your life. .......................Isn't that a Kind of Commitment?!

Measure upon that a lot of things that we do everyday of our lives...We will find that Life is ALL About Commitment but may be with different ratios.

So returning to our Question ...Why the Fear of commitment when it is around us in different figures & different shapes ?!

I don't think that I am the only one who sees it that way ..But I will also appreciate it if someone has different opinion than mine ...I will be happy to hear it.

Is it about Maturity ?!...

Is it about Priorities in Life ?! ...

Is it about taking the right decisions at the right time ?!...

(Although I never believed about Knowing Exactly what's the right time to do anything because life is really unexpectable!. )

Is it about bad experiences that people hear or see every day around them ?!

Is it a Psychological thing ?!

I really don't know...I wish I would find out one day.. :)

That's just a little brainstorming that happened to be going in my mind today.

Thanks to my friend :D... because it has been a while since I last thought of something to write about in my Blog.

About Life...

Just Wanted to Be Reminded of that all the time,so I thought of sharing it...

Graduating that Soon!! :D

In a sleepless night , I decided to write ....I decided I won't write a lot because I just want to Highlight a new turning point in My life...GRADUATION..............................YaaaaaY :D!!

This week has been a busy week Preparing & Celebrating a new Checkpoint in my life....

Starting with the Rehearsal for the Graduation on 8/10/2010,The Grand Graduation Ceremony on 9/10/2010, a Cozy Celebration party with one of my Friends Family on 10/10/2010 & Finally the After Grad party on 11/10/2010.

Me & my Friends..After five Years of Hard Work ...We are Finally Graduating!!!

If u asked me now : & what Do u feel about that ?!!!!

I will Spontaneously say : I Don't know :D!

It is Actually a Complicated Mixed Feeling!...

It is a Mixed Feeling of JOY, RELIEF, SUCCESS, may be a little FEAR, MISSING my Friends, EXCITEMENT for a new start & LONGING for Good Old Days.

Quoting one of My favorite Songs :"Those were the Days My Friends....We Thought they never End =) "

But Unfortunately they have ended :) ....But Ended With a Lot of Good Stuff, Great Friends, Wonderful Memories & A New Start.

OR Let Me Say: A New Level Of Our Lives has Just Begun...A More Serious One...With new Rules ,New Restrictions & New Friends :).....A Wise Man Once Said: "Make New Friends But always Keep the Old , Because some of them are Silver & the Others are Gold ;)"

Last But Not least, I would like to end what I just wrote with a Sentence I heard before in a Graduation Video That inspired me a lot :

"Graduation is Not the End ...IT is the BEGINNING" :)

Never Let go Of Ur Dreams!

I have always wanted to have a dream to follow…Something to be inspired with..SOmething to hold On to!
I guess that dreams sometimes play a big role in directing people’s life or shaping it.
Having a dream that u want to achieve is like drawing a path that u want to follow… Sometimes this path is a hard one , Sometimes it is an easy one, BUT what matters the most is that: Are U Strong Enough to hold on till the end, till u achieve it ?!!
Or after one, two,or three problems u start to surrender, fall & don’t want to continue ?!
I guess we all have sometimes that we don’t want to continue, we become weak enough to stand again & continue our path! May be even we cry from the stress or the load of the path , & What we choosed before became what we may refuse now .
Here Comes the role of your Beloved Ones …may be it is a father, a mother or a brother, Or a dear friend.
They are the ones who put u again on ur track . They are the ones who can give u a PUSH in ur way in order to be able to continue.

But there is Also another very important One that I must not forget ! It is God !
Whether u Really believe in it or not , it is trueee that if u tried to continue your way to your dream or goal alone , it will be very Difficult & Nearly IMPOSSIBLE!
But if u have someone to trust in, depend on, be sure that will guide u & help u …it will really be much easier!
That’ not just a theoritical talking …That’s based on more than one experience in my life.
U may say so why then not to depend on just a friend or a family member ?!!
I will tell u that whoever u depend on, will not give u the support or the inner peace given by God..& u can easily try it !
Besides people can easily disappoint u. …They may Get Busy in their lives that they aren’t free for ur problems ,Or Simply they stop caring & then u will not be able to force them to help u !

But God will never get busy & will never stop caring …He may let you experience some problems or some pain for a while ..but Be Sure that’s always for a reason….& in many cases it is for a good reason not a bad one !(Believe it or not!)Because I believe very much in the Quote that says ” God Doesn’t Play Dice!”.

So, whenever u Feel Tired & can’t continue any more , Just Remember that GOd is Always there waiting for u to tell Him : Please Help!

JUST NEVER LET GO OF YOUR DREAMS!

That’s What I need to remember Specaily right now !

I am saying it God, Please Help me …I need u!