Spirit Of God

I don't know where to start or what to say, but I felt like I would like to document some feelings I felt the past couple of days and Don't want to Forget these feelings & this situation Ever.

My aunt(Mother's sister) has just died last Wednesday & it hasn't been that easy for all of us.

Although she has been sick almost all of her life, She was Very thankful in every stage!

She had a lottt (& when I say a lot it means that u can't imagine how many things..) of Heavy Burdens on her shoulders. Yes she was sometimes tired of it & sometimes can't handle it & may be angry From God(that's Because we are Humans who have a certain Limit in accepting Burdens),But that was for a very short time & then she Return Thanking him for everything...

I guess if Someone asked me : what is the Worst thing in this life ?..I would say the answer to be "Death!"

It is the Worst in everything, in Separating people, in Changing the picture of the people u love

to another one....

But at the same time, I see it like this, It Always Make U Remember what Life is all about...

It is not about Fighting, Hating ,Money......

It is about helping People,Making good deeds,Serving God & Serving People...& Then at the end these good deeds shall be evaluated if u deserve to be rewarded for ur life or not; & as Good as these deeds are ,You shall Get Your Reward.

Another point that came to my mind in this situation is;that Our Souls (which is part of GOD's spirit) is a very Precious thing that we sometimes totally forget about it .

(You will never Realize that unless u look to a Soul-less body..!)

& That's where I totally realized it ...

When I looked to the "Soul-less Body", I Suddenly realized How Useless , Unpleasant & Bad a Body can be without the Soul which is the "Spirit of God" in it ! (No Matter how Beautiful the person is !),

& How Valuable ,Beautiful & Great a body with Spirit of God can be ( even if that person is not Beautiful at all!).

And How Sometimes we take care of Our Body (the useless ,vanishing one) More than the Beautiful & Everlasting Soul which is REALLY a Gift from God that He gave us in the first place.

Some people may say that I am trying to get something religious out of this, But Believe me I Mean Every Word with its "Literal Meaning" & Not a Larger Meaning. You won't believe me until u see it yourself. But It is So Real!

My Moral from this Experience I lived is that :We Should Thank God For Every Breath that we take ,Every Move that we Make & Every Day that he Gives us is Really another Chance...

We should grab it to the Most, because suddenly & without any intro's, This chance will be over...

History...

I have never liked history in school, neither studying it or even reading it ...But today was different...I lived it!

Of Course u may laugh at me & say: if u r LIVING it then it is not history Yet !..it is just the present..

But I will tell u: allow me to call it History because what I lived defined a Turning point in my people & my country's history...& I may not live it again.

It all started with a group of People..

A group of people who had some Requests & some Hopes...

Some Opinions that have never been heard before, & some Thoughts that have been in their hearts & minds for so long but didn't have the chance to express it..So these people decided to MAKE their Own Chance..& that was the start!

It was Tuesday 25-1-2011, it was a Day off when people decided to Break their Silence and Express themselves in a good & Democratic way..Just Express Themselves.

I admit I wasn't courageous enough to participate in the Demonstrations, But I was concerned to Share the Feelings of the people & stay updated with all what was happening.

At First, I didn't feel that excited...Was just a demonstration & it will end soon & nothing will happen as Always !!

After the day finished and people were still concerned that they won't stop , it started to feel different step by step .. My People are Finally expressing what WE feel & that we are considered one of the Most Civilized countries in the world ..and all the world started watching us!

3 Consecutive days of demonstration in different parts of the country...NON STOP!

Until the day Everything changed into a Nightmare...

It all turned to a War & Not a Demonstration...a War between Citizens of the country & its Government!

Policemen against Protestores, Fights, Quarrels, Stones, Tear gas, Fire, Blood, Curfew & then Military Forces in the streets !!

I won't be able to express everything happened or felt in that day..but all I can say is that it was a Mixed Feeling of Sadness, Fear, Worries & shock !

It was a HEll Of a Week..I still can't believe how it passed!

I even don't know if it passed very fast or very slow !...

It felt as if My Life has been PAUSED for a week..and waiting to continue it soon!

I can't deny that some great achievements have been made due to this week ..Achievements that we didn't dream of fulfilling at first.............but Also great Sacrifices have been paid too.

I wish I could document everything & every feeling that happened in that past week ; with its good & bad ; But I guess I can't...

It will just remain in my mind till the time comes when I narrate it to my kids or read about it in History books (that I still don't like :) ).

Why The Fear ??!

This topic has came to my mind a lot before ..but I never thought of writing about it until today;after having a conversation with one of my friends about relationships & commitment.

I decided that I want to write about it ...May be that will help me not think about it any more. :)

I Have always wondered about: Why a lot of People (specially Men ..with all my respect :D ) fear about being committed ??! Why do some of them just "Freak Out" when they think of the word "Marriage" and all what comes with it of meaning ?!

Of course some women do too ..But Women are always more ready for Sharing ,Starting a family & being responsible for a home & children.

Even in the Movies ! (specially the american ones :D) ...
Two people may love each other very much, they are happy with each other , They even may live together & do things together ... They Almost Share Everything together!

But once one of them start thinking about marriage & Commitment ..ohhhh No! They start Freaking out & Going back to not being ready !! (what the ...?!!)

What I really mean here is that Life is all about being Committed to many & different things.

I see it as follows:

-Any one who has a family is Committed to his family (whether his father ,Mother, brothers, sisters ,cousins....etc ) ...He/she just can't come one day & say: Sorry that's enough..I am bored of being part of this family & I will search for another .

-Any one who Love his job is committed to his job & to the Company he is working for.

(May be some will tell me that Committed = Forever...& no one will stay in his same job or company like Forever !...But I tell u It is Definitely a kind of Commitment).

-Any one who has Friends , Is also Committed to his Friends to some extent.

-Even someone who is Doing a Project /Assignment at a company ,College or Even A Personal one , He/ She is Committed to that Project till it is finished!

- A Church you go to all your life, A school , A University....You will keep on saying: That is MY CHURCH..MY School & MY University that I graduated from ...It just will remain with u for the rest of your life. .......................Isn't that a Kind of Commitment?!

Measure upon that a lot of things that we do everyday of our lives...We will find that Life is ALL About Commitment but may be with different ratios.

So returning to our Question ...Why the Fear of commitment when it is around us in different figures & different shapes ?!

I don't think that I am the only one who sees it that way ..But I will also appreciate it if someone has different opinion than mine ...I will be happy to hear it.

Is it about Maturity ?!...

Is it about Priorities in Life ?! ...

Is it about taking the right decisions at the right time ?!...

(Although I never believed about Knowing Exactly what's the right time to do anything because life is really unexpectable!. )

Is it about bad experiences that people hear or see every day around them ?!

Is it a Psychological thing ?!

I really don't know...I wish I would find out one day.. :)

That's just a little brainstorming that happened to be going in my mind today.

Thanks to my friend :D... because it has been a while since I last thought of something to write about in my Blog.

Life is short...

Don’t get Pessimistic after reading this post’s title..& decide u don’t want to read the

post….because I am not telling that in order to make u feel down. .. Absolutely! :)

I am saying that in order to JUST LET YOU THINK once & twice before u become angry with someone or start hating someone for any reason…whether it is a good reason or a sim

ple & tiny reason!

Before u decide that u r angry with that person & that u will never talk to him/her again

…. U will never take the first step to apologize ……Just ask ur self these simple questions:

what will u ever benefit from that ?!!

what if something really bad happened to that person the next day u decidedu will not talk to him/her again ?!!! will u feel happy?! ....OR even Happened to ME ?!

Or will u really regret it that u did this…& that the last thing he remembered about u was; that you told him u hated him/her or u r not friends anymore …?!!

I assure u that it is really NOT WORTH IT !
It all goes very fast ….everything in life !One second u r totaly healthy & u like it ………& suddnely …..atchooooooo ….u catch a cold ! (& that’s the simplest that can happen of course!)
Another u r driving ur car safely in the street ….& suddenly and unexpectedly….u make an accident !
One minute ur friend is calling u on the phone & u don’t want to pick up because u r mad at him/her …….& the minute after u hear he/she did an accident after hanging up on u ...or that one of her Family is really sick!

It all happens in seconds really! & no body can prevent it...
It happened to me more than once….& every time it happens …I can’t believe it is happening again!
& I am really afraid that next time it happens with someone really close to me…& something really bad!

So, This is to remind myself before reminding anyone of you…..that Life is really too short to be mad at anyone….it is really not worth it to hate people….it is not worth it to be even angry at them! or Envy them for anything...I remember a quote that says"Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about."...which I believe is very true.
Anybody can leave this world at any second…& when it happens neither me/you nor the person that I am mad with will be happy about it..

Last but not least, “You never Lose by loving,You always lose by Holding back”... Always Remember the beautiful verse from the Bible that says "Love Never Fails". :)