It's the end of a quiet day & a busy week  , when all I have on my mind is :

"PLEASE DON'T TRY TO FIT IN, YOUR ARE ORIGINALLY CREATED TO STAND OUT !"

I don't know why I always CARE to fit in the environment around me; at work , at church, at a crowded event...I NEVER  try  to STAND OUT or grab attention or be under the SPot light!

Nevertheless , I have all the qualities & belief that I am different than most of people around me  & I can Easily Stand Out if I want to.

Stand Out not in the Bad Arrogant Way, But in the simple way of having been through A Lot of  tough Life situations & long Career experiences and  still survived !

I need To REMIND  myself  Frequently with that Coz I Deserve To STAND OUT & Not Just fit in .

Day 1 of Gratitude - My Parents

I am Grateful : That I still have both my parents in my life. Although it is sometimes tough to live with them anymore at this age since we disagree most of the time coz we have different priorities, different point of views & different problems in life, but I guess that not having them around me during tough times will definitely be a lot worse. So, Thank you God for knowing that I won't be able to survive these tough times without them. Please keep them in my life a bit longer. Please keep them healthy .Please fill our home with peace & our hearts with Happiness & Don't forget about me.

30 Days of Gratitude

    

 Sometimes, When  life gets tough, we tend to see the bad side of our Lives only & we refuse to see the good side . For me, It has been a while now on the tough side of life were everything seems wrong , bad & against me . Knowing that prince charming will not be coming to save me (coz that  only happens in my favorite world : Disney!) & that I am a big girl now who have to save herself ..Bla Bla Bla ...!

I Decided to find my own inspiration & start My "30 Days of Gratitude" project . I will write a post everyday about something that I am grateful for in my life. It could be 1 thing, 2 things or more.

I Hope I commit to the project till the end  & If so, I Shall do more future projects..

So, Stay Tuned ! 

"Tinker Bell"

Call Me a Child...But I admit Disney Movies have never failed to Inspire Me !:D

I was enjoying watching "Tinker Bell" this Morning,when I got inspired to write after a long time of not being inspired & Not writing anything!

I was introduced to a Very enjoyable & different World than our own, But the moral I got can't be more satisfying or Beneficial to use it in our World :)

It was all about "Fairies", Flying fairies with there beautiful transparent Wings & Sparkling Magic Dust.

Each Fairy has a special job.

-There is "Light Fairy"...who can hold the last light of the sun & give it to fire flies in order to be able to glow in the dark & help them to fly at night :D.

-"Water Fairy" who can hold dew Drops & move it easily to flowers & surfacies that can't reach water.

-"Flying Fairy" who help little birds how to fly :D!

-"Garden Fairy" who put magic dust on flowers in order to help them Flourish

& "Tinker fairy" who help people by Fixing broken things up & collecting junk parts to invent something new to help people with........See How amazing:D!

Fairy "bell " didn't like being a "Tinker Fairy", she felt Useless & Stupid & wanted to be any other kind of fairies who do more interesting & magical stuff.

She tried learning all the other jobs of the other fairies but ended by Messing everythings up. Even her Other Fairy Friends works'; who they have been working for a long time, Preparing for the Beginning of the Spring...All got messed up!!

But Being the "Tinker Fairy" who invents things & Fixes things up , She was the Only one at the end who was able to save the Day & Put everything back in place again :)).

I know that the story is not a new Story, it has been done in many other ways may be .

But What really amazed me; is that beside Enjoying the Amazing Imaginary world with all its details, & Escaping From your real (& sometimes complicated) world, You can really get out with a nice moral or something that you may have been thinking of before.

The Moral I got from this movie was that how Satisfying & great it is to Help People, Even if you see your job a small or useless one, Just Doing it really makes a Difference.

As they said in the Movie:

"Ur Talent Makes you Who You Are, You Should Be Proud of it "=).

Spirit Of God

I don't know where to start or what to say, but I felt like I would like to document some feelings I felt the past couple of days and Don't want to Forget these feelings & this situation Ever.

My aunt(Mother's sister) has just died last Wednesday & it hasn't been that easy for all of us.

Although she has been sick almost all of her life, She was Very thankful in every stage!

She had a lottt (& when I say a lot it means that u can't imagine how many things..) of Heavy Burdens on her shoulders. Yes she was sometimes tired of it & sometimes can't handle it & may be angry From God(that's Because we are Humans who have a certain Limit in accepting Burdens),But that was for a very short time & then she Return Thanking him for everything...

I guess if Someone asked me : what is the Worst thing in this life ?..I would say the answer to be "Death!"

It is the Worst in everything, in Separating people, in Changing the picture of the people u love

to another one....

But at the same time, I see it like this, It Always Make U Remember what Life is all about...

It is not about Fighting, Hating ,Money......

It is about helping People,Making good deeds,Serving God & Serving People...& Then at the end these good deeds shall be evaluated if u deserve to be rewarded for ur life or not; & as Good as these deeds are ,You shall Get Your Reward.

Another point that came to my mind in this situation is;that Our Souls (which is part of GOD's spirit) is a very Precious thing that we sometimes totally forget about it .

(You will never Realize that unless u look to a Soul-less body..!)

& That's where I totally realized it ...

When I looked to the "Soul-less Body", I Suddenly realized How Useless , Unpleasant & Bad a Body can be without the Soul which is the "Spirit of God" in it ! (No Matter how Beautiful the person is !),

& How Valuable ,Beautiful & Great a body with Spirit of God can be ( even if that person is not Beautiful at all!).

And How Sometimes we take care of Our Body (the useless ,vanishing one) More than the Beautiful & Everlasting Soul which is REALLY a Gift from God that He gave us in the first place.

Some people may say that I am trying to get something religious out of this, But Believe me I Mean Every Word with its "Literal Meaning" & Not a Larger Meaning. You won't believe me until u see it yourself. But It is So Real!

My Moral from this Experience I lived is that :We Should Thank God For Every Breath that we take ,Every Move that we Make & Every Day that he Gives us is Really another Chance...

We should grab it to the Most, because suddenly & without any intro's, This chance will be over...

Rush of Memories....

Going through some of my photos,I had Lots & Lots of Memories..!!

Some of them are the best ever..Some are not that good & some may be bad ...

The most important thing is to have lots of Memories..because when u look back, remember & go through these memories , you will feel very happy about them .

You will feel that the past times didn't go in vain..You will know how much u invested & how much did u gain :)

You May even wish for some memories to come back again, & you will wish for others they won't ever come back!

I wish that these memories will never fade away...coz these memories define who I am ,Whom I became & may be who will I become in the future.

The only thing that I consider as a disadvantage for memories is that they sometimes prevent you from moving forward..
You keep loving these memories that sometimes u refuse making new ones coz may be they won't be as good as the old ones...

But if these old memories go away ,u will find yourself Missing a lot!!

It has been only few months on my Graduation , & I started missing already my Friends & my College days !:)

I miss hanging out with my favorite friends, Staying in our favorite places in Uni. (& out of it), Chatting about what is good & what is bad, Spending long days together, Going out in Large groups ,knowing people closer & closer everyday ..I miss making new memories with them!

I just wish that these beautiful memories wont' fade away from my Memory as well as my Friends memories coz it will be the only bond connecting us after a while =).

History...

I have never liked history in school, neither studying it or even reading it ...But today was different...I lived it!

Of Course u may laugh at me & say: if u r LIVING it then it is not history Yet !..it is just the present..

But I will tell u: allow me to call it History because what I lived defined a Turning point in my people & my country's history...& I may not live it again.

It all started with a group of People..

A group of people who had some Requests & some Hopes...

Some Opinions that have never been heard before, & some Thoughts that have been in their hearts & minds for so long but didn't have the chance to express it..So these people decided to MAKE their Own Chance..& that was the start!

It was Tuesday 25-1-2011, it was a Day off when people decided to Break their Silence and Express themselves in a good & Democratic way..Just Express Themselves.

I admit I wasn't courageous enough to participate in the Demonstrations, But I was concerned to Share the Feelings of the people & stay updated with all what was happening.

At First, I didn't feel that excited...Was just a demonstration & it will end soon & nothing will happen as Always !!

After the day finished and people were still concerned that they won't stop , it started to feel different step by step .. My People are Finally expressing what WE feel & that we are considered one of the Most Civilized countries in the world ..and all the world started watching us!

3 Consecutive days of demonstration in different parts of the country...NON STOP!

Until the day Everything changed into a Nightmare...

It all turned to a War & Not a Demonstration...a War between Citizens of the country & its Government!

Policemen against Protestores, Fights, Quarrels, Stones, Tear gas, Fire, Blood, Curfew & then Military Forces in the streets !!

I won't be able to express everything happened or felt in that day..but all I can say is that it was a Mixed Feeling of Sadness, Fear, Worries & shock !

It was a HEll Of a Week..I still can't believe how it passed!

I even don't know if it passed very fast or very slow !...

It felt as if My Life has been PAUSED for a week..and waiting to continue it soon!

I can't deny that some great achievements have been made due to this week ..Achievements that we didn't dream of fulfilling at first.............but Also great Sacrifices have been paid too.

I wish I could document everything & every feeling that happened in that past week ; with its good & bad ; But I guess I can't...

It will just remain in my mind till the time comes when I narrate it to my kids or read about it in History books (that I still don't like :) ).

Why The Fear ??!

This topic has came to my mind a lot before ..but I never thought of writing about it until today;after having a conversation with one of my friends about relationships & commitment.

I decided that I want to write about it ...May be that will help me not think about it any more. :)

I Have always wondered about: Why a lot of People (specially Men ..with all my respect :D ) fear about being committed ??! Why do some of them just "Freak Out" when they think of the word "Marriage" and all what comes with it of meaning ?!

Of course some women do too ..But Women are always more ready for Sharing ,Starting a family & being responsible for a home & children.

Even in the Movies ! (specially the american ones :D) ...
Two people may love each other very much, they are happy with each other , They even may live together & do things together ... They Almost Share Everything together!

But once one of them start thinking about marriage & Commitment ..ohhhh No! They start Freaking out & Going back to not being ready !! (what the ...?!!)

What I really mean here is that Life is all about being Committed to many & different things.

I see it as follows:

-Any one who has a family is Committed to his family (whether his father ,Mother, brothers, sisters ,cousins....etc ) ...He/she just can't come one day & say: Sorry that's enough..I am bored of being part of this family & I will search for another .

-Any one who Love his job is committed to his job & to the Company he is working for.

(May be some will tell me that Committed = Forever...& no one will stay in his same job or company like Forever !...But I tell u It is Definitely a kind of Commitment).

-Any one who has Friends , Is also Committed to his Friends to some extent.

-Even someone who is Doing a Project /Assignment at a company ,College or Even A Personal one , He/ She is Committed to that Project till it is finished!

- A Church you go to all your life, A school , A University....You will keep on saying: That is MY CHURCH..MY School & MY University that I graduated from ...It just will remain with u for the rest of your life. .......................Isn't that a Kind of Commitment?!

Measure upon that a lot of things that we do everyday of our lives...We will find that Life is ALL About Commitment but may be with different ratios.

So returning to our Question ...Why the Fear of commitment when it is around us in different figures & different shapes ?!

I don't think that I am the only one who sees it that way ..But I will also appreciate it if someone has different opinion than mine ...I will be happy to hear it.

Is it about Maturity ?!...

Is it about Priorities in Life ?! ...

Is it about taking the right decisions at the right time ?!...

(Although I never believed about Knowing Exactly what's the right time to do anything because life is really unexpectable!. )

Is it about bad experiences that people hear or see every day around them ?!

Is it a Psychological thing ?!

I really don't know...I wish I would find out one day.. :)

That's just a little brainstorming that happened to be going in my mind today.

Thanks to my friend :D... because it has been a while since I last thought of something to write about in my Blog.

About Life...

Just Wanted to Be Reminded of that all the time,so I thought of sharing it...

Graduating that Soon!! :D

In a sleepless night , I decided to write ....I decided I won't write a lot because I just want to Highlight a new turning point in My life...GRADUATION..............................YaaaaaY :D!!

This week has been a busy week Preparing & Celebrating a new Checkpoint in my life....

Starting with the Rehearsal for the Graduation on 8/10/2010,The Grand Graduation Ceremony on 9/10/2010, a Cozy Celebration party with one of my Friends Family on 10/10/2010 & Finally the After Grad party on 11/10/2010.

Me & my Friends..After five Years of Hard Work ...We are Finally Graduating!!!

If u asked me now : & what Do u feel about that ?!!!!

I will Spontaneously say : I Don't know :D!

It is Actually a Complicated Mixed Feeling!...

It is a Mixed Feeling of JOY, RELIEF, SUCCESS, may be a little FEAR, MISSING my Friends, EXCITEMENT for a new start & LONGING for Good Old Days.

Quoting one of My favorite Songs :"Those were the Days My Friends....We Thought they never End =) "

But Unfortunately they have ended :) ....But Ended With a Lot of Good Stuff, Great Friends, Wonderful Memories & A New Start.

OR Let Me Say: A New Level Of Our Lives has Just Begun...A More Serious One...With new Rules ,New Restrictions & New Friends :).....A Wise Man Once Said: "Make New Friends But always Keep the Old , Because some of them are Silver & the Others are Gold ;)"

Last But Not least, I would like to end what I just wrote with a Sentence I heard before in a Graduation Video That inspired me a lot :

"Graduation is Not the End ...IT is the BEGINNING" :)

Never Let go Of Ur Dreams!

I have always wanted to have a dream to follow…Something to be inspired with..SOmething to hold On to!
I guess that dreams sometimes play a big role in directing people’s life or shaping it.
Having a dream that u want to achieve is like drawing a path that u want to follow… Sometimes this path is a hard one , Sometimes it is an easy one, BUT what matters the most is that: Are U Strong Enough to hold on till the end, till u achieve it ?!!
Or after one, two,or three problems u start to surrender, fall & don’t want to continue ?!
I guess we all have sometimes that we don’t want to continue, we become weak enough to stand again & continue our path! May be even we cry from the stress or the load of the path , & What we choosed before became what we may refuse now .
Here Comes the role of your Beloved Ones …may be it is a father, a mother or a brother, Or a dear friend.
They are the ones who put u again on ur track . They are the ones who can give u a PUSH in ur way in order to be able to continue.

But there is Also another very important One that I must not forget ! It is God !
Whether u Really believe in it or not , it is trueee that if u tried to continue your way to your dream or goal alone , it will be very Difficult & Nearly IMPOSSIBLE!
But if u have someone to trust in, depend on, be sure that will guide u & help u …it will really be much easier!
That’ not just a theoritical talking …That’s based on more than one experience in my life.
U may say so why then not to depend on just a friend or a family member ?!!
I will tell u that whoever u depend on, will not give u the support or the inner peace given by God..& u can easily try it !
Besides people can easily disappoint u. …They may Get Busy in their lives that they aren’t free for ur problems ,Or Simply they stop caring & then u will not be able to force them to help u !

But God will never get busy & will never stop caring …He may let you experience some problems or some pain for a while ..but Be Sure that’s always for a reason….& in many cases it is for a good reason not a bad one !(Believe it or not!)Because I believe very much in the Quote that says ” God Doesn’t Play Dice!”.

So, whenever u Feel Tired & can’t continue any more , Just Remember that GOd is Always there waiting for u to tell Him : Please Help!

JUST NEVER LET GO OF YOUR DREAMS!

That’s What I need to remember Specaily right now !

I am saying it God, Please Help me …I need u!

Follow ur Heart Or Follow ur Mind ?

Should u follow ur heart or Follow ur mind ??

A Question that comes to my mind a lot of times ..& I keep thinking & Thinking & thinking till I find an answer :D Or I just stop out of boredom from thinking !

==>If u Followed ur heart to the maximum ,It is sure that u will do wrong things…& ur mind at this time will not have any meaning…Although the word “WRONG” don’t have a special definition !!!
U Can see that doing something is wrong while someone sees that if u DIDN”T DO this thing that will be the wrong thing!!How Confusing huhh?!!
But If we should follow our heart All the Time then Why did God Gave us the mind ??I think that he gave it to us for a reason !!& we should use it …

==>If u followed ur Mind All the Time,You will not have Fun in many situations & u will miss many things in life…Hmmm Interesting!!!

==>if u followed ur heart all the time then people will c u as a Maniac & crazy ….

==>if u followed ur Mind all the time then u will be tooo ideal without any experiences & may be people say about u that u r crazy too & u r an extreme person.:s

SOOO,then what ?!!I don’t know the answer actually ..May be we should be part A heart follower & part a Mind follower…But is that Possible??!!!
Yaaa I think that it is possible…May be some people say "NO U can't Be Both at the same time" ..U can either be this or that !!!!!!Because the heart always goes against the Mind…

I Believe that I should follow my heart when it takes but Stop when it is necessary to !!
In other words, I Follow my heart in all the cases that is related to me only…But in the things that include other people or that will affect other people…I have to take care!!At least that is what i think!!
At last there is nothing that is “Totally Wrong “or “Totally right”!!& I think this is a 2 sided sword..or that is what makes it difficult..

Enough thinking for now…I guess I will follow my heart in the next coming thing…At Least For a change From thinking :D…

Your Secret

I liked this video very much & thought of sharing it .

Hope u like it as much as I did =)

Your secret from Jean-Sebastien Monzani on Vimeo.

Life is short...

Don’t get Pessimistic after reading this post’s title..& decide u don’t want to read the

post….because I am not telling that in order to make u feel down. .. Absolutely! :)

I am saying that in order to JUST LET YOU THINK once & twice before u become angry with someone or start hating someone for any reason…whether it is a good reason or a sim

ple & tiny reason!

Before u decide that u r angry with that person & that u will never talk to him/her again

…. U will never take the first step to apologize ……Just ask ur self these simple questions:

what will u ever benefit from that ?!!

what if something really bad happened to that person the next day u decidedu will not talk to him/her again ?!!! will u feel happy?! ....OR even Happened to ME ?!

Or will u really regret it that u did this…& that the last thing he remembered about u was; that you told him u hated him/her or u r not friends anymore …?!!

I assure u that it is really NOT WORTH IT !
It all goes very fast ….everything in life !One second u r totaly healthy & u like it ………& suddnely …..atchooooooo ….u catch a cold ! (& that’s the simplest that can happen of course!)
Another u r driving ur car safely in the street ….& suddenly and unexpectedly….u make an accident !
One minute ur friend is calling u on the phone & u don’t want to pick up because u r mad at him/her …….& the minute after u hear he/she did an accident after hanging up on u ...or that one of her Family is really sick!

It all happens in seconds really! & no body can prevent it...
It happened to me more than once….& every time it happens …I can’t believe it is happening again!
& I am really afraid that next time it happens with someone really close to me…& something really bad!

So, This is to remind myself before reminding anyone of you…..that Life is really too short to be mad at anyone….it is really not worth it to hate people….it is not worth it to be even angry at them! or Envy them for anything...I remember a quote that says"Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about."...which I believe is very true.
Anybody can leave this world at any second…& when it happens neither me/you nor the person that I am mad with will be happy about it..

Last but not least, “You never Lose by loving,You always lose by Holding back”... Always Remember the beautiful verse from the Bible that says "Love Never Fails". :)

Do u Know Yourself ?!

I don’t have a special thing to write now..BUT I just feel that I want to write.
I have always wished that I could write stories, novels or even poems…But Unfortunatly I don’t have the gift !!! :D
Really that’s a big gift that some people don’t see it ..

It is a very good thing to have a Special View or to Create someting from ur Imagination & Be able to deliver it to people & share it with them…
Sometimes I don’t know what is my talent or what specially that I am most interested in !!!
I don’t know if this is a good or a bad thing….
I feel that I don’t know MYSELF very well!! …or let me say that I don’t know everything about "Me".

I still discover new things about myself everyday…& I still discover new things that I can Do day by day..
I think that’s a good thing…But My Question Is :DO u think u Have to Know Everything about YOURSELF ?!!!!!
OR Do u HAve to Know urself Very Well ?!!
That’s a good Question I think ?!!But Any Answers?!!!?!?!?!?!?

In order for example to be able to deal with different types of people?!! …
OR in order to use all ur talents & make it grow ?!!

I think I Don’t know the answer……….Do U ?!!!!

What If u Don’t…(like me )….what do u think I should do in order to know myself better or in order to know what I am really talented in?!?!?!

My first post :)

I don't have much to say right now...But I am Just writing not to leave my blog empty :D
I am not a very good writer..& I am not very good with putting what I feel into words ,But I am just creating this blog cause sometimes it feels good to free out what's on your mind ...
Another thing that made me think about making this blog is that, if I faced a problem & i wrote about it & after sometimes ...may be after that problem is solved....when I come & read that problem ..I may smile & say that was a tuff one ,How did i pass through it ?!...OR may be that was a simple problem but at a special time in my life it seems to be the biggest !!
Anywayss,I hope that it could help me before it can help anyone else:)